arms of night

Arms of Night

Held in the arms of night
Made conscious of my immortal nature
In the rapture of the silence of his breath
Its heat as it flows across my face
I breathe with him
Without him I remember
Remember everything you symbolize
What I lost when I fell through the cracks of normality
And sank beneath the waves of anxiety

Do you really listen when I speak
Or do my words fill the void within your soul
Like the cigarettes whose fog clings to your frame
And wafts out of every breath you breathe

Who am I to you, and what have I done to you?
Remember the silence
It builds a cavern
Is that why you never let it live
And I let you
Let you captivate my mind and let it crumble

Who are you fooling
Is it me that you pretend for
Reality is calling me
Reminding that none of this is real
Because you do not love me, you could not love me
Even if you tried
Beyond the borders of the chemistry that binds you to another of your sex
And so I despise him because he is not me
So I tell myself that I would drive you crazy
And you would make me sane
How insane this lie I used to live
Why did you let me?
For now I see it crumble
As the cigarettes whose fog clings to your frame
And wafts out of every breath you breathe
I remember everything you symbolize
You symbolize.