Motivation to finish one of the versions of all of her dying keeps her alive

I've left my novel alone for years. I started revising--yes, why on earth would you revise something that doesn't have an ending yet?--I was re-researching self-publishing now that i have finished up a lot of course work for the semester I can start revising and getting All of Her Dying Keeps Her Alive ready for the publisher. Like now i feel more motivated to finish it because i found out that i can self publish with outskirts press for 400 dollars, and that includes barnes&noble and amazon and all that stuff. which is all great and wonderful. I think dr weiss would say, but did you finish your paper yet. So yes I have two papers to write, but Anla I think we all know that If i sit up all night I can get a lot accomplished. I have nobody to tell me to go to bed anymore. Nobody to say don't you have to go to work. I don't have to sit up and write progress notes. So i've been getting a lot of good rune cards lately. And I made a friend this semester. It's nice. It's been a while since anybody from an online class actually noticed my exisitance. It's nice. And I've stopped sleepwalking if i take the geodon and the trazedone and the klonopin after 11pm and before I was trying to take it like 8pm 9pm that kinda crap. So the disassociation in my sleep and waking up in the middle of the night was making me sleepwalk. don't ask me why i sleep the whole night through if i stay up late. maybe because it's more what i was made to do. i never was a day person. So why when he came home smelling like gas and holding a carborator in a box did i just absolutely melt? He doesn't know it though.