Between the haze and the fire

Between the haze and the fire

I walk between the haze and the fire
Beneath the taunting stars
I feel my blood begin to boil
And crave for it to flow
And mingle in the shattered glass
I long to bathe in, cake myself in blood
That it may override the torment of his face, his voice
Uncoil my soul and watch it rise high above me
Beyond the entanglement of his presence
As it lingers like a hangover from a long empty vodka bottle
Dusty with sorrows surfaced
Never fully drowned
You are here now in his place
Yet I cannot see you
I see death beckoning in its familiar form
Come dance with me among the other bloody skeletons
We’ve missed you in our codependant way
As only codependent can
My darling, my bleeding baby,
Come join me, waltz in this acid with me
Mamma never really left you
Cuz she was never really there
Do you expect the Blessed Virgin to come down and save you?
Bless her and watch her turn her face
Come waltz in this acid with me, my darling bleeding baby
Mamma never really left you cuz she was never really there
St Joan my anorexic darling
Go home before these bastards burn you at the stake
Dies ire dies illa solvet sanctum in favilla
How long can you wallow in the darkness before it learns your name?