he'll never read this

He’ll Never Read This

You’ve never really noticed how the light catches your eyes because
You’ve never really looked at anything or seen the reason behind it
I’ve seen the way the shadows catch the light
And pull it from you with a glow from your soul that only last for
A few seconds
Seconds that are lost as soon as they come
Like a phrase caught on the wind
That tumbles through my brain
I love you
I’ll never say it again
So get that frightened look off of your face
And stop asking me if I’m sure
Nothing’s ever sure not even death
Trust me I know
I’ve tried long enough to die
It’s like a craving in your soul that eats its way out
Until there’s nothing left but an emptiness
That cannot be filled except with
Flowers made of tears you’ll never cry for me
Once he cried for me
Although he won’t admit it
He doesn’t have to
I’ll always know
I always know
The way I’ll always love him
Even when he swears he’ll never say it till it no longer matters
Because my spirit has passed him by
Like the storm across the sky
The way I’ll always crave to die
The way I love you
A hollowness that tears or kisses cannot fill
Kisses that saturate my soul
Till I smell no longer of myself
But of the glow from your soul
That lasts on my lips like the traces of a happy thought
So lost amidst this labyrinth of blood
How beautiful I’ve carved myself again
You don’t have to look
I’ll never show you
I’ll never sever myself so much to say it again
So listen closely before my spirit
Passes you by
Like the storm across the sky